This week I've been out of sorts...
Mon, Sept 24 - 8.06 km
Tues, Sept 25 - 4.54 km
Wed, Sept 26 - 1.05 km
Thurs, Sept 27 - 0 km
Fri, Sept 28 - 1.18 km
Sat, Sept 29- 3.71 km
Sun, Sept 30 - 0 km
Monday, September 24th - My lunch hour I took to my usual noon time walk. I went up Terry Fox drive, cut into the wooded paths and then back to the office. It was relaxing, and calm and I had a lot of time to reflect and think. Hardly anyone was out as everyone was still dealing with the recent Tornado's and many were advised to stay at home to work. Therefor the paths were quiet. The calm after the storm.
I got to thinking about my next goals, and what I would like to accomplish after my hike. I know that I will not be keeping a weekly blog as it has been super stressful at times reflecting on those bad days, and coming up with content that would make interesting reads. I don't want to do that anymore. I want to focus on what I love to do and do it for me. Therefor, I think this website may transform into a personal portfolio, focusing mainly on my Artistic endeavors, my Photography, and my Hiking trips. I find that the anxiety of putting my journey and health out for the public eye to read about is doing quite the opposite as I wanted it to. I talked about all this with mom on our walk this evening. She's a great listener. We stopped by the falls and watched the moon rise - looked close to a full moon tonight. I will definitely be doing a lot of reflecting in the near future. It frightens me to think of the paths I want to take next, and what I have to do to accomplish it. It will be hard work, but with what I have been able to accomplish this past year in fundraising I have to give myself more credit that I do.
Wednesday, September 26th - I simply walked around the building a few times. Stress & lack of sleep has triggered the ill feelings to arise once more, or maybe they just never left. this week I have been easily angered, and felt my little internal Hulk fighting to get out. It was a rainy day which reflected my mood. In a way to help make me feel better, Matthew treated me to dinner tonight at Lumbertown. The food never disappoints, and in honour of travelling to Ireland soon, I opted to try an Irish Stout, as I'm sure I will enjoy a few on my travels.
Thursday, September 27th - A complete and total zero day as I was not feeling well at all. I've felt weak and am worried of getting sick so close to my travel date. A headache behind my right eye was starting up and it was another odd night of not being able to quiet my mind for sleep.
Friday, September 28th - I just walked around work, made a small little wreath from some vines growing behind the building. My eye was really starting to hurt more. I thought it was just due to lack of sleep, but it was starting to feel like something was stuck under my eye lid.
Saturday, September 29th - I woke up to a swollen red eye lid which was painful to the touch. I had to drop off the car to get some work done on it up at the Canadian Tire. I then walked myself down to the emergency room at the hospital to get my eye checked. Since being Type 2 Diabetic, I don't want to leave anything to chance when it comes to my eye sight. After waiting for awhile the Doctor did a couple tests and told me I have an infection called blepharitis.
Nothing severe enough for medication yet, thank goodness. I had to post pone a photography contract this afternoon that I was really looking forward to, but once I got home I was in bed and slept the remainder of the day. I needed the rest. Today, all I did was sleep and watch movies with Matt in the evening.
Sunday, September 30th - No walking today. I slept in and finally woke up very late in the morning. I still didn't have the car today, until the evening. I took it easy around the house and worked on a sketchbook I plan to bring with me to Ireland. My eye is so much better today. Only a small hint of a headache and no sever pain like before. It's amazing how following doctors orders can really work, huh? That heat compress worked miracles, thank goodness, or else I would be wearing an eye patch to work tomorrow.
I'm so looking forward to October. I hope this blepharitis is the worse thing to occur. It's going to be a fun October, I hope. This month is the end of my year long journey with Team Diabetes. I will do it again in the future, but not for a short while as I try to sort out personal stuff first. I'd like to set in motion projects that I put on the back burner that really need my attention; renovations around the house, really focusing and getting help for my eating habits, and getting my personal debt looked after. I'd like to sell a bunch of stuff as I feel like a full decluttering of all my stuff is in order.
- 25 weeks Smoke-free. One week away from 6 months... longest time yet that I have quit without re-starting up.
- 28 days until my hike with Team Diabetes at Wicklow Mountain.
- 20 days until my friend and I get on a plane and leave for Ireland.
Feel Free to donate to Diabetes Canada through one of my fellow members.
Sandra Sofalvi / Rachel Secours / Harry Flint / Robert Muir / Erin & Warren
Just look them up on the website.
Thanks for checking in!
See you next week!
Colleen lives in Arnprior and is working to control her Type 2 Diabetes by training and Fundraising for the 2018 SSE Airtricity Wicklow Mountain Hike in Ireland with Team Diabetes.