Self care isn't selfish.
28.5 kilometers walked/hiked this week.
Mon, Aug 20 - 7.56 km
Tues, Aug 21 - 3.51 km
Wed, Aug 22 - 1.58 km
Thurs, Aug 23 - 0 km
Fri, Aug 24 - 8.08 km
Sat, Aug 25- 0 km
Sun, Aug 26 - 7.77 km
This week was hard. Half way through the week I was struck with such a strong feeling of hopelessness and lack of self worth. I have an addiction and it's to food. When I'm sad, I deserve that pastry to help me get through the day. When I'm happy, I deserve that pastry to reward myself for a good day. Sugar and Carbs. I am having such a hard time controlling my diet and portions. I would rather quit smoking 10 times again, it's that difficult for me.... Tuesday was when these feelings started, and I will get into more detail once I describe the day.
Monday, August 20: This evening I had great company on my walk. My best friend, her kids and I took to the new Algonquin trail again, but before we could get too far, 2 small black cats started following us down the path. They were super affectionate and quite small in comparison to the Beast I own at home. It was an eventful start of our walk needless to say.
We enjoyed looking at the cool graffiti under the 417, and made it to almost where Sarah, Brutus and I had stopped before. We watched the sunset and played with pulling apart the cattail seeds, and feeling how soft they were. I'd love for them to come to Blueberry Mountain or Eagles Nest with me sometime. I have a small fear of walking alone, but feel like if I was better equipped with maybe a bear spray, whistle and knife I'd feel more comfortable. By the time we got back to my house it was quite dark.
Tuesday, August 21: I just walked around work during my lunch hour. I had an over eating episode tonight (Croissants and Nutella) and then depression started to work it's way in. On the upside, I had set up our first night's stay in Ireland with the travel agent Team Diabetes has allocated for us, and was excited and couldn't stop reading up and researching about it all night. The thought of physical activity was quite low on my priority list....
Wednesday, August 22: Walked even less around work today - depression set in. Got home to just cry. I couldn't stop. Did not feel like going out in the world so I stayed in at home and knitted and just watched Netflix... and of course, ate a lot.
Friday, August 24: Tonight I haunted my usual route around the grove, along the water, up the hill 4 times (Elevation = 180 feet each time) through town and home late. Still depressed, but I met up with mom and played around with video on my phone to create my first ever Instagram Story. (Can be seen here... I think) ttps://www.instagram.com/s/aGlnaGxpZ2h0OjE3OTEwNTEzNzAwMjE3MDc5/
Saturday, August 25: Tinkered around home on a zero day, trying to get out of this funk.
Sunday, August 26: On this evening I met up with mom on John Street and we walked down Algonquin trail until the 417, again for me, but a first for mom. She hadn't been out that way before so I went exploring with her. After walking her home, I went through the Grove to get back to my home.
- 20 weeks of no smoking!
- I might be picking up some family portraits in the fall which will be extra $$$ for Diabetes Canada!!
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Colleen lives in Arnprior and is working to control her Type 2 Diabetes by training and Fundraising for the 2018 SSE Airtricity Wicklow Mountain Hike in Ireland with Team Diabetes.