"Don't give up." That's been this past week's motto.
The Goal this week was 35.5 km, & I unbelievably pulled through. I completed 36.03kms!
Sun, July 8 - 0 km
Mon, July 9 - 5.5 km
Tues, July 10 - 0 km
Wed, July 11 - 8.07 km
Thurs, July 12 - 0 km
Fri, July 13 - 10.54 km
Sat, July 14 - 11.92 km
Sunday, July 8th. A Zero day in all senses of the word. I honestly cannot remember what I did.... *trying to think back to Sunday*… maybe I should start writing my blogs as the days go by, that would be easier I think...
Monday, July 9th. Depression hit me like a freight train. I was feeling emotional to an extreme & felt like I could cry at any moment, which... I don't mind admitting, I did! I walked by myself into the Grove but felt the loneliness was an enemy tonight, instead of a friend. I called Mom, and she met up with me on the main path. We talked about how we were feeling. Mom is my ultimate confidant. My Boyfriend and Best Friend top the list as well, but my mom has a special way of just listening and levelling me out. At the beginning of the walk I felt like giving up, & had asked loved ones lost to send me a sign to keep going.... and they heard me. Mom and I have spent a lifetime walking through the grove, but on this night, as we circled back into the forest from the meadow path... we saw 2 deer!!!!! That's an ultimate first time sighting in the Grove!
Tuesday, July 10th. Depression, Exhaustion & Anxiety forced me to go to bed really early.
Thursday, July 12th. Pain. I love being a woman, but for a woman who has decided her life doesn't include children... this is so unnecessary. It's not every month it gets like this, but when it does... oh man. I don't even remember the drive back home from work. I just couldn't find a position where I wasn't feeling numb with pain. (My cat must have known how I was feeling as she was so sweet & concerned. Snuggling and watching over me.) I'm hoping this means I'm free of this kind of cycle for the next couple months. Needless to say, today I had a Zero Day & had come to terms with the fact that I was not going to come remotely close to my kilometer goal for the week. I was defeated!
Friday, July 13th. My work gives us Friday Afternoons off during the summer, and I took advantage of the time having to wait for Matt to finish his work day to re-visit the South March Highlands Paths on my own. I went slow & took in the beauty of my surroundings. I was snap happy with my camera phone here. I didn't even care about the km number showing on my tracker as mentally I had already prepared to fail at this week. I think this is where and when I mentally gave myself a shake. "Don't give up yet Colleen! There are still hours to this day and you have all tomorrow since your photo session rescheduled. You can do this!" That evening I took to my usual hiking haunt down through the Grove. I stumbled across a patch of grass off the sumac path that looked like something big had been resting there. The deer! It must be! I hoped I would see it again and I did. The deer was eating in the Gardens at Gillies and I was able to get pretty close... what a mesmerizing and graceful creature.
- 14th week of no smoking!
- I need $1,050 more to go for Fundraising. I have $73 coming in from print sales & Blind Date with a Book, and the Garage sale I had today (Sunday July 15th) is bringing in some more! How much more? Follow me on Facebook or wait until next week's blog to find out!
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Colleen lives in Arnprior and is working to control her Type 2 Diabetes by training and Fundraising for the 2018 SSE Airtricity Wicklow Mountain Hike in Ireland with Team Diabetes.